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  ASCENT

  by

  JED MERCURIO

  Contents

  Cover

  Stalingrad 1946

  Korea 1952–1953

  Franz Josef Land 1955–1964

  Star City and Baikonur 1966–1969

  The Earth and the Moon 1969–

  Acknowledgments

  Bibliography

  Afterword

  About the Author

  Publishing History

  Stalingrad

  1946

  TWENTY MILLION COUNTRYMEN died in the Great Patriotic War and his whole family was among them.

  His bare feet left footprints in the dirt as the men led him from the farm. Then they set the ruined buildings alight. What had been his life to this point vanished into smoke.

  Rain began to fall. The boy watched it puddle the dirt. It obliterated his footprints and, while he waited, the wheels of passing carts and trucks cut swaths in the muddy road, but in time the rain also wiped these away.

  He travelled to the ruined city in a farm lorry with his only possessions in a sack. From factories came the pounding of metal. The noise passed up from the earth like a groan.

  By the time they reached the orphanage, night had fallen. The other boys watched him being led into the mess hall. He was big for his age, so therefore a target. There was only time for a bowl of broth, then it was lights-out.

  Frost glistened on the window panes, but the oil ration went to the factories so the stoves at each end of the dormitory remained unlit. He was accustomed to the silence of the countryside, but in the city the pounding of machines continued through the night. There was so much to repair, so much to rebuild.

  As soon as he fell asleep, two of them held down his arms while a third jumped on his chest and beat him about the face. The other boys expected him to cry himself to sleep, but he was done with crying.

  In the morning blood stained his pillow, one of his teeth lay on the floor, and his sack was empty.

  At inspection the warden paused at his bunk. “New boy?”

  He nodded.

  “Name?”

  “Yefgenii Mikhailovich Yeremin.”

  “What’s all this, then?”

  The other boys stared straight ahead. None would ever admit having seen or heard a thing. Yefgenii remained silent so he was deprived of breakfast and instead made to scrub his own sheets. That night they left him alone but that was part of their game. They dragged another boy out of his bunk and buggered him over the stove that was unlit for lack of oil and Yefgenii curled up and tried to sleep. Being sent here was like being flung down a well. No one cared that it was cold and dark and no one cared if he ever climbed out.

  Often the boys were made to work as unpaid laborers. A bank of mist and drizzle rolled off the Volga, making some of the boys stiffen in the cold, but Yefgenii kept on. He was strong. He was used to hard labor. There was soot in the air that made his spit turn black.

  The rest of the time they were given schoolwork. In the main they were taught the history of the October Revolution and the facts proving that no nation had sacrificed more than theirs in the defeat of fascism, but they also practiced arithmetic, some trigonometry, sometimes a little algebra. They chanted multiplication tables. Babak chanted the loudest. He was the one who’d given Yefgenii his beating on the first night. When the teacher asked a question, no one’s hand went up but his. This seemed to be the protocol and, though he often knew the answer, Yefgenii was wise enough to conform.

  Afterward there’d be a fight in the yard. Babak’s two comrades were Pavlushkin and Boytsov. They’d stand by while Babak picked an argument with one boy or another and, whether the boy answered back or not, it always led to a battering. Sometimes it was concluded in the yard. Sometimes Babak finished it in the dormitory after lights-out.

  One day the schoolmaster called out Yefgenii’s name. Yefgenii stood to attention. “Yeremin, your mathematics is exemplary.” He’d scored full marks in arithmetic and had advanced to the top of the class in trigonometry and algebra. Babak glared at him. The other boys stared straight ahead as they did at dormitory inspection.

  The master set the boys a quadratic equation. Almost at once Babak claimed to have the answer but he’d made a mistake. The master called on Yefgenii and he answered with the correct solution. In the yard the other boys knew what was coming so they stood away. Boytsov and Pavlushkin held Yefgenii’s arms and Babak hit him in the stomach till he vomited.

  “Lick it up, farm boy. You eat cow sick, you eat chicken sick.” They pushed his face in it and fish-hooked his mouth open but he wouldn’t lick it.

  That night they yanked him out of his bunk. He glimpsed eyes closing, all the other boys pretending to be asleep, as they dragged him over the floorboards to the stove. Pavlushkin stretched him over it by the wrists while Boytsov pushed his head down. He felt cold metal pressing into his cheek. He could smell rust and last winter’s oil, he could taste them.

  “Here’s your lesson, Yeremin.” Babak ripped down Yefgenii’s trousers and long johns then with a noise that was half snort and half laugh he dropped his own. Yefgenii heard his breath quicken, heard the slapping sound of Babak making himself hard. With his palms Babak parted Yefgenii’s buttocks and made the first stab. He used his thumb then tried feeding his dick in with his fingers. Yefgenii couldn’t help crying out. Babak couldn’t get it in. Boytsov grasped a fistful of Yefgenii’s hair and battered his head on the top of the stove. It made a clanging sound that reverberated through the dorm. No one opened their eyes. No one stirred. Boytsov pressed Yefgenii’s head down with all his weight and with his other hand he clamped his jaw shut. Then Babak tried again and this time he was in. To Yefgenii it felt like a balloon was being inflated inside him. He felt an urgent excruciating need to defecate and, if he didn’t, then his insides would burst. Each thrust felt like a rod piercing his pelvis from back to front while his breastbone bashed against the stove. The pain was in his viscera and in his bones. He wailed but Boytsov held his jaw shut so the sound came out as gasps with spit spraying out between his teeth and tears and snot streaking his cheeks. Babak finished with a long sigh. They pushed him onto the floor and took turns kicking him in the ass and then they returned to their bunks. A little later Yefgenii crawled back into his. As his eyes closed, he remembered his family’s farm. He remembered the fields and the open sky. He tasted again his aunt’s cooking, glimpsed his father and brothers sit round the table in their uniforms. His past was a dream, the present was wakefulness. Here came the day, the work to be done, the obstacles to be overcome.

  Blood and semen stained his sheets. The warden asked him for an explanation but Yefgenii wouldn’t break his silence. He was denied breakfast and, though he had difficulty walking, he was made first to scrub his sheets and then to join a detail working in a bombed building. The boys were recovering bricks from the ruins and carrying them by hand to laborers who were laying fresh foundations nearby. Snow was falling in flurries. It was black. Flakes peppered Yefgenii’s blond hair and his lashes. He did a full day’s work.

  The next day the warden led him to the director’s office. The director of the orphanage wore a crumpled gray suit. He coughed all the time and a wheeze punctuated the end of every breath. He missed many days through illness. “Your schoolwork is excellent, Yeremin. You’re aware of the scholarship, of course.”

  Yefgenii shook his head.

  The director coughed so hard it bent him double. “One boy… a suitable boy… each year, one boy out of all the orphanages goes to the Air School at Chkalov.”

  Yefgenii shook his head again. He didn’t understand.

  “The Commandant… an important man… he was…” He coughed again and a
gain and he had to pull a handkerchief from his pocket and fill it with phlegm. “He was an orphan.”

  They continued to labor each day in the ruins of the city. Mud and slush seeped through the holes in his shoes. Rubble was scattered all around him and in the rubble boys carried bricks and men laid them. The men who weren’t out here, the women too, worked in the factories whose machines pounded all day and all night and whose chimneys created a black roof that sunlight never pierced.

  Yefgenii’s bruises became less sore but he’d got a tear that made opening his bowels an agony. He couldn’t conceal his suffering because the boys did so into an open sewer.

  In class the slower ones were learning their arithmetic by rote. Those who hadn’t already gone were bound for the yards and factories. Yefgenii peered down at the algebra problems the master had set. He pictured himself in an officer’s uniform with officer’s pay and officer’s status. He pictured airplanes. He imagined himself soaring. If he felt like he was living at the bottom of a well, then this was a chance to claw his way out. His chalk began to scratch out solutions. These were the rules that governed rest and motion and, though he didn’t know it, they even governed the stars and planets.

  Babak followed him out of the schoolroom. “Let’s see how well you do when you can’t write.” It took all three of them — Babak, Pavlushkin and Boytsov — to pry open his fist so they could break a finger. They’d’ve broken all of them if he hadn’t screamed out. He didn’t intend to. It just hurt so much. Babak pulled him in close by the ear. He was older and heavier but they stood eye to eye. Yefgenii felt the lobe ripping. “It’s my place at Chkalov, it’s mine, I’m the one getting out of this shit-hole.”

  Blood trickled from Yefgenii’s ear. He had to pull his finger straight. Tears streamed down his face while he did it. He could feel the fracture under the skin where the finger was livid and swollen. He tugged it from the knuckle. Pain jolted up to his elbow and shoulder. Later he tore a strip of cloth from his shirt and used it to strap the finger to its neighbor.

  That night he lay awake but they didn’t come for him. They didn’t need to. If he resisted they’d injure him till he was unfit for training. It was Babak he pictured in an officer’s uniform, Babak smiling, Babak soaring. From today in the schoolyard he could still hear Babak’s breathing, he could feel it on his face, could smell his spit. They were eye to eye.

  In the morning the warden saw his hand. “What’s all this, then, Yeremin?”

  Yefgenii remained silent. All the other boys were staring straight ahead. Babak glanced at him for a moment then looked straight ahead again.

  The warden lifted Yefgenii’s hand. Yefgenii winced. The warden unwound the strapping and inspected the fat black finger. “Well…?”

  Yefgenii gazed down and away. A smirk curled the corner of Babak’s mouth.

  The warden dropped the wounded hand. “Have it your own way—”

  “Sir, it was Boytsov and Pavlushkin, they did it.”

  They protested their innocence of course, but the warden still led them away. They shrugged and followed. They knew no one would dare corroborate Yefgenii’s story and, after a lecture from the director — interspersed with bouts of respiratory distress — they’d be back to carry out a reprisal.

  Among the ruins, Yefgenii worked with one hand. He kept the other bound tight enough to press the fingers together but not so tight that he couldn’t make a fist. Boytsov and Pavlushkin would be returning soon. He had only a little time. His heart drummed inside his chest. Everywhere the poundings split the air — metal on metal, metal on stone, stone on stone. The people toiled under a pall of cloud. Stalingrad’s chimneys were black towers; they were mausoleums.

  Babak crossed the rubble to piss into the sewer. Yefgenii had chosen a stone an hour earlier and had laid it close by and now he scooped it into his injured hand. His fingers closed. He shut out the pain. Next he was running. Babak turned at the sound of footsteps skittering over the rubble and Yefgenii struck him in the temple. Babak went down crying out with the shit and reek of the sewer all round and already the other boys were turning to look. Yefgenii crashed down onto Babak’s chest. Ribs snapped like sticks of celery. He got his good hand round Babak’s throat. He was choking him but the purpose was to hold the head still. Babak’s knee smashed into his back and his arms battered his side but Yefgenii held on fast and dug the thumb of his bad hand into Babak’s eye socket. He pressed into the eyeball and now Babak was screaming and boys were gathering round. The boys kept glancing back. Men were coming over from the other side of the site. The boys shuffled together, closing up the gaps through which the men might glimpse the fight. Babak was bucking and writhing but Yefgenii held him down and with his thumb he pressed harder and harder till at last the eye burst into blood and humour.

  Yefgenii was up and among the other boys when the men got there. They found them all gazing down at the one in the sewer with his eye mashed.

  The foreman looked along the row of boys. “What’s going on here? What happened?” He stared at each boy in turn but none of them would speak. His gaze came to rest on one boy who was big for his age with blond hair and blazing blue eyes who looked like he might be the leader. “What happened to your mate?”

  But the boy only straightened up. He shook his head and looked away.

  A couple of the men were now carrying Babak by his shoulders and ankles, up into the rubble where they laid him out, the boy who’d now never go to the Air School at Chkalov. Yefgenii felt himself soaring; he imagined sunlight breaking through onto his face.

  The foreman asked them again but none of the boys would say anything. So he put them back to work. There was a country to rebuild.

  Korea

  1952–1953

  AT FOUR-THIRTY, the falcons of the 221st IAP crowded into the Operations hut. All wore the same olive drab flying suit without name or rank but bearing the insignia of the Korean People’s Liberation Army Air Force. Yefgenii Yeremin stood at the back with the other rookies, while the seasoned fighter pilots took seats in front and chattered about killing Americans.

  Polkovnik Kiriya entered first, followed by Podpolkovnik Pilipenko. The room came to attention. As Kiriya took his chair in the front row, the banks of men behind slumped back down. Pilipenko orbited between the map and the chalkboard, twirling a pointer between his fingers like a drum majorette. “Weather for Antung, twelfth of May, 1952, 0400 Zulu, valid to 0600. Surface wind 070 at 5. Visibility greater than 10 kilometres. One-okta scattered alto-cu, base between 3 and 5,000 metres….”

  Yefgenii’s eyes drifted to the giant chart at the front of the room. The Korean Peninsula dangled off the northeastern tip of China like a stubby finger pointing at the tail of Japan. A thick red line followed the turns of the Yalu River, which divided Korea from Manchuria. Antung was a black circle edging its mouth. A second red line ran north of the 38th Parallel, the former border between North and South Korea, over which North Korean troops had poured two years earlier to overwhelm the South.

  Pilipenko’s pointer struck the map and Yefgenii snapped back to attention. “United Nations aircraft are forbidden to operate north of the Yalu. You are at liberty to operate south of the Yalu. You are permitted to engage and destroy any United Nations aircraft operating south of the Yalu. You will not overfly the sea. You will not enter South Korean airspace — that is, not operate farther south than this line.” His pointer indicated the red line joining P’yŏngyang in the west with Wŏnsan in the east. “You will not transmit in Russian unless absolutely necessary. You are pilots of the Korean People’s Liberation Army Air Force. The VVS is not here. Its pilots are not here. Duties will be notified at 0500.” Then he ended as he always ended. “Thank you for not being here.”

  Outside, an arch of light mounted the horizon. Soon the dawn re-created gray mountains to the west and gray paddies east to the Yalu. A blanket of heat was settling on the airfield, raising a scent of oil and kerosene, while ground crews rolled MiG-15s out of the ha
ngars and onto the dispersal. Their shouts and the whir of tow trucks carried into the crew hut, where the rookies gathered at the window.

  The MiGs’ nose sections were painted red under three light gray numerals. Between the wing root and the tailplane a red star sat in a white circle that was ringed by red and blue. The rest of the fuselage was silver. These were PLAAF markings — North Korean and Chinese, not Soviet — and the pilots’ names didn’t appear on a single cockpit.

  Soon the first wave of pilots were walking out to their ships. On some aircraft small red stars ran in a row under the canopy. Each star represented a kill, an enemy plane shot down. Five stars or more indicated an ace. The pilots who strutted toward these were more lustrous than their aircraft.

  “Welcome to Antung,” said Podpolkovnik Pilipenko. The rookies came to attention. “You’re each to fly a check ride with me. The business of the 221st is killing enemy jets. That comes first. You’ll get your rides as and when slots become available. In the meantime, study these.” He handed a manual to each. They were dictionaries of Korean flying terms.

  Starshii-Leitenant Glinka took an eager step forward. “Podpolkovnik, what are our operations today?”

  “Our operations, Glinka?”

  “Yes, sir. Are we escorting our bombers? Are we intercepting theirs?”

  Pilipenko smiled. “No, son, we’re just going up.”

  “Sir?”

  “Just shaking our tails, looking for a fight. They shoot at us. We shoot at them. Then we count how many of theirs we got, how many of ours we lost.”

  “That’s all, sir?”

  “Yes, boys, that’s all.”

  Jet engines were igniting on the dispersal. The first whine built. The rookies pressed their noses against the glass. Soon all six engines were running up and their turbines spun to a blur. The sound rattled the windows. Yefgenii tracked the aircraft as they skimmed out to the runway and then slid up into the sky. Condensation trails formed at around 5,000 metres and soon began rarefying in the vault of air above. From their eastern slope they arched out over North Korea. As they broadened and faded they might’ve been the fossils of great flying snakes.